you wanna love someone?
love yourself
goddamn, girl.
love yourself.

but what if i don’t?
what if i don’t know how to?
what if i gotta find someone
to love me
so good
that it feels like i love myself?

i mean, damn.
you try spending 18 years 
in skin that doesn’t feel
like home.

you try loving everything so much,
everything but you,
so hard
so hard that you run dry.

i love things,
lots of things.
i also love people,
lots of people.
but there’s a difference
between loving someone
and loving
with someone.

i mean,
how am i supposed to love myself
when i don’t know what
loving myself,
loving me,
even looks like.

loving others?
that comes too naturally.
loving me?
well, all i can say is:
i wish it was that easy.